Hello all. Ok, so some of you might think that I’ve been taken back to my home planet or that I’ve run off and joined the French Foreign Legion (an expression of my Dad’s) or that I’ve become a goatherder at the top of some mountain somewhere. Nope. None of you are right, but thanks for playing. The truth of the matter is… life is just busy, peeps! What with everybody’s favorite ready-made excuse for everything, the Holidays (shudder) and changing jobs and all, things have just gotten away from me. But here’s the deal: I’m going to try.. TRY to start updating more often. Shorter posts, more to the point. I mean you guys don’t have to know every detail of what’s on my mind, just the highlights, right?
With that in mind, the new job is going great. Things got smoothed out fine with my old boss. Misunderstanding. All good now. Crazy co-worker, not so much. She sent me a Christmas card with a sort of perfunctory apology for all the junk that’s gone on between us, saying she missed me and she wanted us to still be friends. And I said, “Whaa…?!” So I wrote her a little Christmas card, which I also did for everyone there, and I included a little letter that said, in effect, that I accepted her apology, but she needed to know how she had made me feel most of this past year. I basically thanked her for making the environment there miserable enough to push me to get out of my comfort zone and try to find another job (which wasn’t hard, because this one just sort of fell into my lap) because I am much happier where I am now. I ended by telling her I hoped that she found something that made her happy and joyful, and that she was a good homemaker and a great mom, both of which are true. Overall, best response I could have made? Probably not, but she needed to know that “Sorry” doesn’t fix everything. I am definitely happier with where I work now, so that’s all that matters.
Job-related happiness aside, the children are causing all sorts of emotional turmoil for me at this point. The girls are graduating in May, which is just one of those “Where have I been the last 18 years?” things. You wake up one day and realize your job is almost finished, and you hope like crazy that you did it well enough. Thankfully, I’ve still got…The Boy. He is enough of a challenge to keep me busy for another three lifetimes. His educational issues and mood issues and social issues, or rather teaching him to function in society despite those issues, is going to be the focus of my life for the next 10 years at least. Getting him through high school alive and finding him a direction in life is going to be my main goal.
Despite the challenges in raising them, the kids are a lot of fun. We had an awesome 18th birthday party for the girls. We hired a karaoke DJ and decorated a local small meeting space to look like a club, sort of. They had a great time. We all did. I discovered that I make dorky faces and dramatic gestures like some kind of Diva Wannabe when I sing. Except I knew that already. I’ve been a Wannabe singer my entire life.
Also under the category of Kids and Fun, I am really, REALLY looking forward to our vacation in May, when I take them on a cruise. I could literally spend hours just looking through my planning notebook, staring at packing lists and flight schedules and touring plans. I have read reviews of our ship and looked at hundreds of pictures, read Frommer’s Carribean Ports of Call backward and forward. Just can’t wait. Except that when it finally gets here, it means the girls have graduated and are now free to go make their own lives. As tough as it is for me to let them be free, I hope they get where they want to go.
So anyway. Things are good. I have been working on what I want next year’s theme to be, so be watching for a post on that. Life theme, I mean. This year was action, last year was transformation… I’ve been trying to examine where I am in my journey and where I want to get to from here, and that is never easy. But hopefully with prayer and hard work, I’ll eventually make a start at it, at least.
Until next time,
- R. Kelly Performing on Caribbean Cruise (dreblacksofresh.com)
- Puerto Rico Welcomes New Cruise Ship (huffingtonpost.com)
- Tom Felton’s Christmas Card? [Celebrity Twitterverse] (socialitelife.com)